Ready for the Weekend

So it's only tuesday and I'm ready for the weekend. The past two days have been tiring since having started a new job, having class and just not feeling great..trying to recover from a sinus infection.
I have the best side kick a girl could ask for..he takes very good care of me and keeps me laughing even when I'm stressed, tired and worn out. He makes me feel beautiful even when I don't, and makes me excited to get married...

I love our neighborhood

I have to say that I was worried about whether I would like this neighborhood because to me..as an outsider it looked like there wasn't much going on for young people..yes..at 30 I still consider myself young. Before I moved to the Art Museum area..I lived in a hip/happening area of the city. Something was always going on..whether I wanted it to or not. I actually lived on the most beautiful street in Philadelphia. It's not just my opinion, but the opinion of everyone in Philadelphia. The homes are priced so high that you have to have a trust fund to be able to buy one. I rented an apartment because I don't have a trust fund. It was a safe street that you could sit on someone's stairs and read for hours..or just observe the beautiful trees and beautiful homes..and daydream of what it would be like to live in one of them.
Having said that..my life is much richer in many ways now than it ever has been. I have a wonderful partner/soon to be husband, we live in a lovely house that has lots of charm..and great neighbors who happen to be some of our closest friends. I could be walking down the street and run into a neighbor with a new puppy or walking a cross the street and have a friend honk and say "Get in..I'll drive you home and we'll catch up!" Our neighborhood has lots of friendly people, great places to eat within walking distance, and lots of beautiful homes. I couldn't be happier..

A Pew

I have purchased a church pew..yes, a church pew. I saw it and just knew that I wanted it in our home. I didn't purchase with any kind of religious intent..but it has come from a church that was torn down and knowing that it was in a church for many years I know that it has been blessed numerous times and that prayers may have been answered while people sat on it. It feels right that it be in our house..almost feels like it belongs.
I started my new job today..and I will be working closely with a woman who I will call Joan Cusack because she is rather funny..in a rather Joan Cusack way. So..I think that this job will bring lots of laughs, but at the same time lots of challenges. It's a rather small company with lots of innovative ideas..so I look forward to the challenges.

Flipped Out..

Today is friday..I'm supposed to be happy because its the end of a long week. It's also my last day at my current job. I should be really,really happy and I am..except that I had two heavy boxes, a purse and another bag to get home today. I thought..maybe this won't be bad. I'll catch a cab and it will be fine. I ended up walking three city blocks trying to hail a cab..by the time I did I thought I was going to flip out and I did. I need a drink!!

Working Girl

Has anyone ever seen the movie "Working Girl"..it came out in 1988. I sort of feel like I can identify a little bit with this movie..the relationship between the boss and her assistant...along with other things that happened in this movie. The tag line for this movie is "For anyone who's ever won. For anyone who's ever lost. And for everyone who's still in there trying" and combine that with a really good song by Carly Simon called "Let the River Run"..and you've got an instant uplifting moment. Sometimes when I come home after a long day or have a wonderful day where I feel like anything is possible..I'll often sort hum along to this song. It gives the feeling of unity among everyone that has to work for a living (especially women) and are trying to prove themselves in a workforce.
I'm sure you are wondering where all this is coming from..I think it's combination of changing jobs - finally truly feeling wanted/needed by the workforce/making my own mark and giving up my identity as a single woman just trying to make it on my own. Those struggles have really shaped me into who I am: a lover of the underdog, tired of those who underestimate my intelligence, learning to stick up for myself in the workplace, and to learning/determining my own worth.

New Job

I resigned from my job today. I'm about to start a new job in about two weeks and I'm looking forward to it. It's stressful, but my current job is stressful..so not much will really change in that regard. I do think the new job will bring new opportunites and a whole new level of respect that I don't feel like I have right now.
I can't say that 2007 has been boring in the least! New job, New marriage..two very big life altering events. Who knew that 2007 was going to be my year??
I've heard people say things like "I can't remember what life was like before having a child or being married"..and I have to say that I agree. When something comes along that you've been waiting for..well..for a long time..it's like getting one of the last pieces to a very complicated puzzle.

Can't sleep

It's midnight..and I can't sleep. I hate that! I'm so tired..and I just feel like I'm waiting till morning comes cause I've gotten nothin..just hanging out in bed just hoping to fall sleep. I have to admit that I start to close my eyes and a million things start racing through my brain. Why is it that we can't have on and off switches to our brain???
It's been a very stressful past few weeks and it hardly seems fair that when I want to sleep I can't.
Here's why I can't sleep- major deadlines at work, wedding planning, weirdo taxi drivers, exams, no time to get to the gym, and just trying to keep it together...to keep all the balls in the air. Trying to please everyone..and it makes me want to scream. I want to drop all of them, but I can't. I've discovered that I have a type A personality. I never thought I'd be that person, but I think I am. I wish I could just not care. I would sleep better, right?
I can't help but think about my friend K when I'm having these moments of "will this ever end?" I don't want to know the answer...